Bremsstrahlung

I'm having some difficulty coming to terms with the fact that this week I must make a choice which will determine in large part the course of the rest of my life.¹ Of, course, most every decision has an impact on the rest of one's life; an impact which is often larger than one thinks about. Still, I spend most of my time really seriously considering the next few minutes to next few days at most. Add to this the fact that significant choices make me quite nervous, and the result is that I'm feeling no small amount unsettled. Unfortunately, I have a hard deadline for this decision, which makes the pressure palpable. I really don't think that I've ever been faced before with such a directly significant choice, and I'm not enjoying it.